The snowstorm postponed my mapping appointment, but it also gave me something unexpected: time. Time to look back at the last six weeks and notice how much has changed—and in ways I didn’t fully recognize without reflection.
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A few weeks ago I was reading through a leadership blog and the word Productive Paranoia jumped out at me. This word struck a chord with me and I decided to investigate and find the source. Jim Collins in his book “Great By Choice” describes a triad of core behaviors that is central to successful leaders and organizations. He describes how fanatic discipline, empirical creativity, and productive paranoia achieve results in chaotic and uncertain environments. This was the perfect resource to help me navigate through a letter I had received about my cochlear implant and sent me into a tizzy.
Productive Paranoia is described as taking effective action as a result of uncertainty. The letter I had received indicated that there was a voluntary corrective action for the CI device. The letter stated that there was a small percentage effected, however, this kicked in my productive paranoia.
It was encouraging to read and find out that paranoid behavior is enormously functional if fear (or my tizzy) is channeled into extensive preparation and calm, clearheaded action. It is impossible to predict the future, but taking something unknown can be channeled into a productive path.
What did I do with my productive paranoia?
What did MY productive paranoia do for me? This curveball actually strengthened my cochlear implant decision. The letter, the productive paranoia, the questions, the testing; all channeled me to a path to choose JOY. I have found JOY in my improved bionic hearing over the past 3 months. I have found JOY in hearing the robins sing after getting a new program in my cochlear implant. I have found JOY in hearing with less effort. I have found JOY in Bionic Hearing.
I wrote this blog before the national emergency was announced and schools were closed in Ohio for the coronavirus. Whether the main curveball or uncertainty in your life is Coronavirus or you are you experiencing another; how will you refocus the Productive Paranoia to take effective action? In the end, I hope that your curveball will strengthen you and you will choose JOY for all that you have been gifted.
The snowstorm postponed my mapping appointment, but it also gave me something unexpected: time. Time to look back at the last six weeks and notice how much has changed—and in ways I didn’t fully recognize without reflection.
Activation day marked the beginning of my second cochlear implant journey—bilateral! Spoiler alert- it didn't sound good----yet! With preserved low-frequency hearing and amazement for the brain’s ability to adapt, I reflect on the unfamiliar sounds, the emotions that surfaced, and the confidence that comes from knowing this process is a marathon I’ve successfully run before.
Nine days post-surgery, I’m living in the unilateral listening world—grateful for what I know and amazed by how much has changed in six years. From electrocochleography signals to Frosty's and French fries, this part of the marathon reflects healing, gratitude, and the road to bilateral sound.
“The first CI is life-changing. The second CI is pure joy.” Friday I begin that joy-filled marathon as I step into the bilateral CI world—ready for new sounds, new possibilities, and a brand-new chapter of hearing.
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